I dreamt of my baby

It’s the last month before life changes forever next month. And this morning, I had the first dream of my baby.

In my dream, I was frantic and was wondering what I had missed out. Then I realise I have a baby.. and she’s out. She was sleeping soundly in a cot, in the room where DR and I were in when we were still staying with my parents. I peeked into the cot, and she was sucking her pacifier, sleeping soundly. Mom was also standing near me.

“She looks like me when I was a baby,” I thought in my dream.

Then I woke up… and I felt God assuring me that my baby will be out to see us soon… counting down to end Jan 2018!

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Getting ready for our little one

It started with attending a pregnancy seminar…

And we visited a baby fair at Expo where we got a breast pump and a cot, including this free packet of diapers!

Mom (Grandma) bought our little one lots of onesies that can be buttoned from the front.

And we bought a changing table cum chest of drawers from Ikea, which was later painstakingly assembled by DR and Sarah using three hours!

Mom bought her towels..

And a church friend offered their pre-loved bottle steriliser!

Some pending items that we need for now:

– Baby bottles

– Baby carrier (getting a second-hand Manduca from Carousell which is in a pretty good condition. If the baby doesn’t like the carrier, at least I know I haven’t spent a bomb on this)

– One or two more sets of bedding (mattress cover, pillow case) for the cot

– Lots of diapers (S and M-sized)

– Lots of baby wipes

An eventful lead-up to being 30

So, here I am, writing as a 30 year-old. I have finally reached the milestone of being 30 recently. But boy, from the last post to my current one, so many things have happened all at the same time.

Anxiety, fear, grief, loss, joy, hope, strength – all in the past one month before my 30th birthday.

11 August – the passing of Ah Ma and hospitalisation of my dad.

15 August – the passing of DR’s aunt after a 3-month fight against a rare brain disease.

These were just one of the few major things during this period that made me shed tears, made me realise how important family are, and how precious our lives are.

God has been so gracious to me and our family. He is our good Father who comforts us and gives us hope and strength. I believe that as I enter into the next season of life being in my 30s, God wants to remind me that He is my help, my strength and my hope. I really cannot stop marvelling at how God had placed angels to sustain me during those trying times.

Dad was discharged on 21 August. And he is regaining his daily functions. For that, I thank God for healing him, and giving mom the strength, patience and love to help him, even as she is dealing with her grief of losing her own mother (my Ah Ma). I truly thank God for making these trying times short, and helping us along the way. In the future, we don’t know what will come, but God is there, and He is the unchanging anchor we can always trust.

 

 

 

 

The modern day medium

“The Philistines set up their camp at Shunem, and Saul gathered all the army of Israel and camped at Gilboa. When Saul saw the vast Philistine army, he became frantic with fear. He asked the Lord what he should do, but the Lord refused to answer him, either by dreams or by sacred lots or by the prophets. Saul then said to his advisers, “Find a woman who is a medium, so I can go and ask her what to do.” His advisers replied, “There is a medium at Endor.””
‭‭1 Samuel‬ ‭28:4-7‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I have been pondering about Saul seeking a medium when God refused to answer him on what he should do when he saw a huge threat in front of him. How can this situation be reflected in our lives today?

Then I realise, we could have been "seeking mediums" too. The "medium" we could have been seeking in our modern day is the Internet and the "how to" articles — "10 ways to overcome your fear of talking to people", 5 steps to make people buy your idea". Sounds familiar eh.

Today, I received a piece of news which I made me feel lost and scared. I quickly Googled and sought out what people said on forums and did not seek God. Fears and nightmares clouded my mind… aren't I guilty of faithlessness and my lack of reliance on God? Like Saul, haven't I sought a "medium" to know what to do when struck with fear?

Tonight, I confess my sin to God. By the blood of Jesus Christ, I seek God's forgiveness, and by faith, I receive it. Let me focus not on what others say, but I pray for focus and faith on God, our Creator, our almighty and merciful Father.

Week before Good Friday

It is the week before Good Friday. And I am thankful that this week, I have some space to breathe after a packed, non-stop action week (was even called back for a work meeting on a weekend). Space to think and remember that this week, we are approaching a special day that is central to our faith — having Jesus die for us on the cross for our sins, as the ultimate sacrifice, that we may see God once again. 

It has been a beautiful week. Serene. Calm. For one of the mornings, I saw this beautiful sight from my window. As if God is inviting me to be with Him and stay in Him.

*bliss*

Hello, March

Hello there, March. Wanted to say hello before my blog grows cobwebs. Haven’t had a post since November last year! 

I really should try to write more often. Because I think writing in a blog helps me reflect, and when we reflect, we learn. Some highlights in the past few months:

1. Seoul trip with DR’s family (Dec 2016)

2. Birth of Jamie – Shumin’s little girl ( Jan 2017)

3. Learning how to manage less-than-ideal working relationships at the workplace, and in the process, becoming “thick-skinned”.

4. Learning basic Korean with DR – 안녕하세요 (I typed this using the Korean keypad, not copy and paste from online, ok!)

5. Embarking on a major work project that I would like to seek God’s wisdom on. It is exciting but the scale of it is rather daunting. 

Anyway, so my last post was my then upcoming trip to Seoul to DR and his family. It had been a good trip where I had my first skiing experience at Jisan Forest Resort! Skiing is fun, probably because I learnt how to stop my skis rather quickly (remember: adjust your legs in an inverted “V”, as if you want to pee). Hurhur. Photographic evidence below. 

This was me learning how to ski. The challenge for me was to go up the slope with those darn heavy skis… I really don’t mind going to a cold place to ski again though I must make sure I do proper warm ups. I had such bad aches after skiing… -.-”

Alright, signing off for now… I will leave you with a picture of my favourite drink in Seoul’s winter – hot sweet potato latte from Holly’s Coffee (about SGD$7+). You need to have it with almond flakes!

Lord, show me your glory

I was trudging my way back home on Friday evening after work. My day was mundane, my soul was down, my relationships were not exactly rosy and I felt unaccomplished in so many aspects. It was one of those days when you feel, you know, sian. I was dissatisfied.

So I requested to God, “Lord, show me your glory. I know when I see your glory, my soul will be filled once again.”

God replied, “See my glory in the cool evening breeze that you are feeling on your face. See my glory through you breathing and walking right now. See my glory in the house that I have given you. See my glory in your parents – I have kept your mother safe from an accident she met earlier this month.”

And joy and hope filled me. Because the Lord has shown His glory and love to me.

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