In 3 days!

On 1 June, I posted a picture of the place where I’ll be going for an overseas course on my blog.

In a twinkling of an eye… the actual day will soon be arriving – in 3 days! God’s blessing šŸ™‚ See you all in November!

Feeling wronged and misunderstood

The feeling of being misunderstood is heavy to the heart. It is especially so when you are misunderstood by someone close to you. It feels even worse when you know such perceptions are hard to get rid of, and you probably will be labelled by this person in such an undesirable way for a long time.

I can…

1) wallow in self-pity

2) cry to God that it’s unfair and that I’ve been wronged.

3) try defending myself by being mean or sarcastic, justifying with a list of things that can prove the person otherwise.

I did the first two and was almost tempted to do the third. Very very tempted.

But thank God, even with a heavy heart, God quickly reminded me that this means I will need to treat this person much much better. This is not to heap burning coals on him/her, but to let him/her see the change in me and thus, correct the wrong perception he/she has of me.

I have to admit, this is really hard. Why should I prove myself to him/her? My efforts may be futile. To others, maybe all I need is to put in 10% effort and they will think I am good. But for this person who misunderstands me, although I may put in 80%, or perhaps, even 100% effort, he/she may still continue to have this warped and wrong perception of me.

Sigh. This is one thing I know is beyond my control. That is when God’s truth has to take over my emotions. Now I know why God said in the Bible to leave justice to Him, and not to take revenge. If I took “revenge”, and tried to accuse the person of stupidity and close-mindedness, I would have sinned against him/her and that would have made me look even more petty.

Do the right thing, and leave the rest that’s beyond human control (change in the intangibles) to God…. HARD MAN. But nothing is impossible with God!!!!!

Everything to be thankful of

Looking back the past few weeks, I have many things to be thankful for.

Having roughed out some tough and emotional weeks, both in work (the leaving of my direct supervisor/dealing with less-than-positive company culture) and in my personal affairs, I am glad to say a new day has dawned.

Our Yahweh, as always, was faithful and sovereign, above all these things. Despite my lack of faith, God was faithful and brought me through the uncertain and worrisome periods.

Seeing how in the end things have turned out to be, God has never EVER abandoned me in spite of my spiritual drought. Such unconditional love, who can give?

Here goes my thanksgiving:

#1: DR and I have received a queue number for the recent BTO that is finally within the number of flats available! Now, we ask for wisdom and peace to choose the flat that will be suitable for us.

#2: My Sec 2 girls – I am heartened to see them becoming more mature in their thinking and for opening up in sharing deeper things in life. They have been an immense blessing to me in my weakest period. They are God-sent little angels… And we thought that mentors should be the ones blessing your littleĀ sheep, but my little care group girls haveĀ been the ones doing exactly what I ought to do to them as a mentor – comfort and encourage.

#3: The spiritual practice of asking the Holy Spirit to fill me every morning has been helping me a lot! I was amazed how easily my tone of voice changed when I wanted to snap at my mom one particular morning. It didn’t even take any of human effort and I was surprised that I sounded so gentle despite my frustration inside. The Holy Spirit has also been teaching me how to be humble to take advice and to react not immediately in anger. I know I am imperfect but I’m slowly learning…

Ok, I got to sleep soon. In this special thanksgiving post, I pray that God will bless you in His own special ways as well.

Because I’m worth it

Girls want to be wooed. It’s true.

It’s not enough to say “I like you” and expect the girl to reciprocate.

I was a skeptic to such things in the beginning. I didn’t want DR to buy me flowers or send me home or offer to carry my bag. I wanted to be the unconventional girl but in the end, I failed quite miserably.

When DR wooed me, he got me flowers and was really helpful whenever I needed to get something. I remember I was very irritated with him then. Heh.

In retrospect, I was blessed, yet I did not know I was. Being wooed showed that I am worth all the effort and money. It is an honour to be wooed.

TIPS ALERT FOR SINGLE MEN

A close sister and I were talking about guys liking girls, and it struck me that there is a difference why some guy could get girls and some couldn’t. A guy can pay a lot of lip service but if he doesn’t demonstrate with action that the girl is really special in his eyes, by doing the fundamental thing of courting her (e.g buying her flowers, being exceptionally helpful/gentlemanly towards her, writing cards on her birthday, showering her with simple gifts – no need for extravagance), forget about getting a girlfriend. Do not fall into the trap of elevating yourself to show how good you are in order to attract the girl. Remember that she’s the one who’s special and you want to do things that make her feel special, not things to boost your ego!

Another thing for men to remember, please be patient. Do not be so overly enthusiastic that you forget that the girl you are wooing is human, not an object or a goal to be achieved. Even if she rejects you after ALL your wooing efforts (I mean real actions, not just declarations please), be a gentleman. What doesn’t kill you make you stronger! You never know, perhaps the girl might be attracted to you after seeing you handle the rejection with so much poise and grace.

Lastly, remember that once you get that girl, continue to pursue her, just like how God loved and pursued relentlessly His people. Afterall, she is special and she’s worth it.

Been thinking about faith, hope, love and other things

On Faith, Hope and Love

As it is famously declared in 1 Corinthians 13:13, “And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.” , I’ve been reflecting why love is the greatest, the most important. A few nights ago, it dawned on me that this verse talksĀ about God, rather than what one should do.Ā 

I have always took it that the verse talks about how one should put love before anything else spiritual. One of the prior verses leading to this famous verse explained that if one can speak in tongues (the possession of spiritual gifts), yet, does not have love, the spiritual gift is useless. Therefore, our actions and faith must be motivated by love.

But last night, the Lord opened my eyes. The focus was no longer on ranking what is the most important quality I should practise. Instead, it was revealed how much God treasures relationships and people; how big a heart He has for people. ‘Faith’ and ‘Hope’ are qualities that focus merely on the individual’s life. It can be manifested even if Man is alone. However, ‘Love’ is a quality that can only be exemplified with the presence of another person. Love is relational. Through ‘Love’, blessings are passed on to others, rather than kept for oneself. It demonstrates God’s generosity and capacity for relationships. And guess what, God finds ‘Love’ the most important, all because He is a very intimate and relational God, and we, being created in His image, are meant to be relational so that we can bless one another.

God’s Word – It’s for understanding and discovering God Himself, not a manual of what-to-do/what-not-to-do. Only when we discover God, do we discover ourselves and our roles. Having it work another way round is making life hard for ourselves.

The Old Testament God I seldom see

Many people have said that in the Old Testament (OT) of the Bible, God was often seen as an angrier, more jealous and punishing God, as compared to the New Testament. However, having read so many verses and stories in the OT has revealed that God has always been the same – righteous, loving and always looking out for people who truly seek them with their hearts.

The verses last night strengthened the above perspective and who knew that the following actually happened in the OT! It was most pleasantly surprising šŸ™‚

Most of those who came from Ephraim, Manasseh, Issachar, and Zebulun had not purified themselves. But King Hezekiah prayed for them, and they were allowed to eat the Passover meal anyway, even though this was contrary to the requirements of the Law. For Hezekiah said, ā€œMay theĀ Lord, who is good, pardon those who decide to follow theĀ Lord, the God of their ancestors, even though they are not properly cleansed for the ceremony.ā€ And theĀ LordĀ listened to Hezekiahā€™s prayer and healed the people. – 2 Chronicles 30:18-20

In the OT, I always thought, sorry but pardon my language, that God was a sucker for the law, purity and cannot stand a single filth in His presence. In the OT, only the High Priest could enter in the Holy of the Holies – God’s dwelling place and even still, the High Priest must make sure he has to be thoroughly cleansed before entering into God’s presence. People who have been against the law have actually DIED!

So here in the above verses, we saw the opposite. Many Israelites were not following the law because they didn’t have time after travelling from the North to South, from Israel to Judah to visit the restored temple. But their heart was right – they were sincere to “follow God” (2 Chron 30:19). That was what made the difference. Here we see, how much God treasures the heart and the attitude of his people in seeking Him, rather than the method in which we use to seek Him.

Make me laugh… Heartily and Loudly!

Nowadays, comedies are getting worse and more predictable. Everyone who watched the recent movie, “Johnny English Reborn” told me how they laughed really hard from the beginning till the end. DR and I decided that we need a laughter fest, so we booked tickets and went to catch the movie, anticipating to laugh, as what other said, “from beginning till the end”.

Oh how disappointing. The scenes were mostly predictable and oh-so-familiar that DR and I could manage, at most, 10 grunts of laughter throughout the whole movie. Mind you. It is grunting, not the LOL-kind. So yea, it is difficult to make me laugh.

However, I discovered the best show to really make one laugh heartily! It is Korean variety show “Running Man”! The first episode was so hilarious and entertaining that I had to stifle my loud laughters from distracting my mom from her TV show. The people featured in this variety show never fail to crack me up with their dead-pan quips and daring stunts during the competition.

Please dub more episodes of “Running Man” in ENGLISH! I don’t mind paying for it!