I dreamt of my baby

It’s the last month before life changes forever next month. And this morning, I had the first dream of my baby.

In my dream, I was frantic and was wondering what I had missed out. Then I realise I have a baby.. and she’s out. She was sleeping soundly in a cot, in the room where DR and I were in when we were still staying with my parents. I peeked into the cot, and she was sucking her pacifier, sleeping soundly. Mom was also standing near me.

“She looks like me when I was a baby,” I thought in my dream.

Then I woke up… and I felt God assuring me that my baby will be out to see us soon… counting down to end Jan 2018!

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Getting ready for our little one

It started with attending a pregnancy seminar…

And we visited a baby fair at Expo where we got a breast pump and a cot, including this free packet of diapers!

Mom (Grandma) bought our little one lots of onesies that can be buttoned from the front.

And we bought a changing table cum chest of drawers from Ikea, which was later painstakingly assembled by DR and Sarah using three hours!

Mom bought her towels..

And a church friend offered their pre-loved bottle steriliser!

Some pending items that we need for now:

– Baby bottles

– Baby carrier (getting a second-hand Manduca from Carousell which is in a pretty good condition. If the baby doesn’t like the carrier, at least I know I haven’t spent a bomb on this)

– One or two more sets of bedding (mattress cover, pillow case) for the cot

– Lots of diapers (S and M-sized)

– Lots of baby wipes

What to do in KSL City Mall

I had a short staycation recently in JB at Holiday Villa JB City Centre. The hotel is right next to KSL City Mall. I was googling about what to do in KSL but most were about eating. I compile a list of 8 things you may be want to do, which would otherwise be expensive to do so in Singapore. This post is dedicated to the “el cheapo” in all of us – those who want some quality but don’t want to pay exorbitant prices! :p

1) Watch a movie – SGD$5.40 per pax on a Friday night.

2) Buy De’ Lava classic lava cheese tart at about RM$4.30 (SGD$1.50) per piece. Love the oozy cheese lava that didn’t taste ‘jelat’. The texture of the lava was just right, without being too runny.

3) Buy tights and loose pants from an open shop, near TESCO supermarket. Around SGD$5 per piece.

4) Buy clothes from Peniwern open shop – rather fashionable women’s tops at affordable prices (less than SGD$20), also near TESCO supermarket.

5) Eat Auntie Anne’s pretzels – RM$5.30 (less than SGD$2) for the premium range.

6) Have the sesame chicken mee sua from Souper Tang at about SGD$6.50 per bowl. Delish!

7) Get a haircut at RCS Hair Salon (Level 2) at RM$59.90 (SGD$20) – Victor, the hairstylist, was very detailed when cutting my hair. The shampoo lady, though not adept in English, gives really good head massages while shampooing and washing my hair. She has mean hair-blowing skills too.

8) Buy shoes from Fabiano Ricco – comfortable and presentable day-to-day casual/office shoes at about SGD$20.

An eventful lead-up to being 30

So, here I am, writing as a 30 year-old. I have finally reached the milestone of being 30 recently. But boy, from the last post to my current one, so many things have happened all at the same time.

Anxiety, fear, grief, loss, joy, hope, strength – all in the past one month before my 30th birthday.

11 August – the passing of Ah Ma and hospitalisation of my dad.

15 August – the passing of DR’s aunt after a 3-month fight against a rare brain disease.

These were just one of the few major things during this period that made me shed tears, made me realise how important family are, and how precious our lives are.

God has been so gracious to me and our family. He is our good Father who comforts us and gives us hope and strength. I believe that as I enter into the next season of life being in my 30s, God wants to remind me that He is my help, my strength and my hope. I really cannot stop marvelling at how God had placed angels to sustain me during those trying times.

Dad was discharged on 21 August. And he is regaining his daily functions. For that, I thank God for healing him, and giving mom the strength, patience and love to help him, even as she is dealing with her grief of losing her own mother (my Ah Ma). I truly thank God for making these trying times short, and helping us along the way. In the future, we don’t know what will come, but God is there, and He is the unchanging anchor we can always trust.

 

 

 

 

The modern day medium

“The Philistines set up their camp at Shunem, and Saul gathered all the army of Israel and camped at Gilboa. When Saul saw the vast Philistine army, he became frantic with fear. He asked the Lord what he should do, but the Lord refused to answer him, either by dreams or by sacred lots or by the prophets. Saul then said to his advisers, “Find a woman who is a medium, so I can go and ask her what to do.” His advisers replied, “There is a medium at Endor.””
‭‭1 Samuel‬ ‭28:4-7‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I have been pondering about Saul seeking a medium when God refused to answer him on what he should do when he saw a huge threat in front of him. How can this situation be reflected in our lives today?

Then I realise, we could have been "seeking mediums" too. The "medium" we could have been seeking in our modern day is the Internet and the "how to" articles — "10 ways to overcome your fear of talking to people", 5 steps to make people buy your idea". Sounds familiar eh.

Today, I received a piece of news which I made me feel lost and scared. I quickly Googled and sought out what people said on forums and did not seek God. Fears and nightmares clouded my mind… aren't I guilty of faithlessness and my lack of reliance on God? Like Saul, haven't I sought a "medium" to know what to do when struck with fear?

Tonight, I confess my sin to God. By the blood of Jesus Christ, I seek God's forgiveness, and by faith, I receive it. Let me focus not on what others say, but I pray for focus and faith on God, our Creator, our almighty and merciful Father.

A food trail

About 2 weeks ago, I tried food at places that I would never usually go like Kim Keat and Chinatown. Since there are so many food photos in my phone (besides the food I had two weeks ago), I am going to post them… for my own personal consumption (pun intended)!

Salted egg crab, Kam Jia Seafood at Ang Mo Kio

Apéritif at Prisci’s surprise 30th, put together by her hubby. He baked the bread btw!

Ma La Xiang Guo, Chinatown



This is “Dragon’s breath”, Geylang Serai Bazaar. You can puff out smoke when you eat one of these balls. Novel but not yummy food.


Claypot Hokkien mee for 2, Kim Keat. See how it sizzles. 

Brotzeit’s sausage, ribs and pork knuckle platter

The world we face tomorrow 

I recently had a talk with my colleague about her kindergarten-going daughter who whispered in my colleague’s ears that she has a boyfriend in class. We were amused at how this young girl was so upfront about it, and I quipped, “Thankfully, she said she likes a boy. If she said she likes a girl, you would be in a much difficult position!”

“Actually, I will be okay if she likes a girl. But if my son tells me he likes another man, I don’t think I can take it well.”

“Are you serious? So you will be fine if your daughter has a girlfriend?”

“Yup, I can understand if she likes a girl. It can be quite normal. I will support her. But for a man, I am not so sure. Unless, he is the ‘man’ of the relationship, then I think I can accept it.

Our conversation was cut short by me having to leave the train for my stop, but it made me think hard about the world our future generation will confront. Increasingly, many places are legalising gay marriages, with the most recent being Taiwan. 

Having been brought up to understand that the norm in marriage is between a man and a woman, I was stumped. If my peer can be so open about it now, I can only imagine that marriages can be so different in future and how if one were to speak up against gay marriages, one could possibly end up being prosecuted.

The more I thought about it, the more I feel this wave is unstoppable. My future generation will see that norm marriages can be between two men or two women, apart from between a man and woman. How will I explain to them about this other “norm” of gay marriages, and that they should not go into it because it is a sin to God? It’s like telling them to stop spamming Harry Potter movies (to the extent that you love it more than your life or God) but the rest of the class is doing it or endorsing it. Ok, this may be a bad example but I can’t think of any better ones now at 12.30am.

Then, I realise, it’s not about telling our future generation what they should or should not do. I remember someone related to me an incident that happened many years back where children in church were made to throw away their Pokemon-related items in front of everyone. I am not sure of the thought processes, but this person shared with me that she felt scarred by this incident. It left her disillusioned as a child in her faith. This sharing showed me that renouncing something that a child likes very much in their lives, something that is a norm to all other children, without helping them to understand properly or helping them see in their hearts why they had to do so, can have a reverse effect. 

Hence, before I share with my future generation the do’s and don’ts, I must first ensure that they fully understand God’s sacrificial, merciful and unconditional love for us, His purpose and His character. Which I myself must live out. In doing so, I want to teach them to love, fear and honour our Lord Jesus Christ. Only then, will they dare to make a stand in their beliefs, for God, before men.

Having said all these, I am assuming perfect conditions in life, ceteris paribus. That my child can listen, that I can teach well, that my child has a strong will, that … etc. But we all know life is not like that. I am not sure of my own abilities to bring across these points to my child eventually… I can only trust that God will give me wisdom to teach and my future generation to have the will and strength to face the issues of tomorrow. 

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. – Matthew 6:33-34

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